Thursday, January 22, 2015

Its My Birthday


My biological clock has gone hay wire.Am having trouble sleeping early and waking up early. This often happens to me every time I got home. Literally, this cycle keeps repeating and really annoys me knowing that I am so weak to fight my sleepiness. 

So... the headline says it all. Happy birthday to me !!! hahaha... Sounds pathetic but who cares . Alhamdulillah, I have turned 22 years old. He still gives me this chance to continue living, and improve on anything I should do to become a better khalifah in this world and to please the creator of this dunya which is Allah the Almighty. 22 years of living, and have I done much to this world? to my family? have I done enough as my preparation to meet Him?? A question that we all should really think about, and we ought to have the urge to do something to change our status quo.

Clearly if I were to write a list on the things I want to accomplish in this temporary living would require lots and lotsa papers. okay it was just an exaggeration. The point is, I want to achieve a lot of things. I want to become a better person in and out. A person with a beautiful akhlaq, a person who can be nice to every human without having the slightest bad thoughts about anyone. A person who will not rant or whine each time a problem occurs. A person who will not bad mouth about anyone. A person who will always give flower to even to the person who throws stone at me. 

Yes. I want to be a beautiful person , with beautiful akhlaq, iman and aqidah.
Just like our prophet, Rasulullah. peace be upon him.

But as normal humans, sometimes we only know how to wish, how to just say things but without acting much to make our goals come true and is just merely dreaming. 

I pray to Allah that with this time left for me to live this life, I want to gain as much knowledge as I can, not to boast, but to fulfill my responsibility as a khalifah. To spend the time with my family and to learn how to treat them well (still trying especially with my youngest sister). And to learn how to accept tests as chances for me to become stronger .. 

Nothing comes easy. But with His will, everything is possible. Have trust in Him.
La haula wala Quwwata Illa Billah. :)

Thursday, July 4, 2013

The Story of a Girl

That Girl
Who was once so talkative
Has now become more passive
That Girl
Who was once so brave and outspoken
Has now become a coward and more silent
That girl who was once so bright and confident
Has always cried when a problem appeared so sudden

One day,
She thought that she had found love
The love that brought happiness and butterflies in the stomach all over
The love that made her so secure like no one could ever barge in
The love that felt almost perfect, where you can dream all day and not getting bored

But as she grew older
She had discovered that,
There is a bigger purpose of living
Rather than just dating and enjoying
Life is not about dreaming on about your cinderella story
but life is, to please the One that has given LIFE to you
Not the typical life that lovers usually compliment each other when they are madly in love
But this life, was given by the creator of all humans, creator of all creatures
Life is not about plainly doing good deeds and expecting rewards from Him
But life is more to that.
To seek for His pleasure, rahmat, and mardhatillah.

Every day is a new start :)


Assalamualaikum. This blog existed a few years ago. When I started writing on this blog, I had to admit that I had written a bunch of immature, and emotional posts. I am not good at writing, especially essays, be it english or bm. seriously, and, Im not fond of writing. But now, I have decided to start writing back . Maybe a way to improve my writing skills by writing here, in my blog. This semester, I had taken the subject, academic writing skills, which is the subject I least fond of, but the subject i loved to attend the most because I just love English and English teachers and lectures are always fun :) I hope I can write more academically, rather than just whining and complaining . and this is perhaps one of my medium of sharing beneficial things apart from facebook and twitter. :) Doesn't matter if there will be any readers or not, like I said, this is one way of me improving my writing skills. Wallahu 'alam :)